A recurring thought after taking a shower and actually getting dressed for the day.
Also Dark Souls 2 burned these words into my retinas. Oh you aren’t having a great time playing the game with only half a health bar and unfair boss fights? Crack open a human effigy and the words HUMANITY RESTORED radiate over the screen.
As always the ongoing struggle to focus on anything continues. Todays best performance was sitting on the edge of my bed for about an hour mindlessly (and with mindlessly I mean being stunned by my own racing half-complete thoughts) staring at the wall paper until i realized i didnt just missed being on time. I was still sitting on my bed at the time i initially planned to arrive.
The recent human experience
Collection of recent thoughts
- Sometimes i feel like a character in a show about struggleing with mental illness and finding myself deeply relating with it as well as being fully aware that i am not – The little voice in my head that runs the usual buisness keeps telling me to never buy into delusions which is basically the definition of being reasonable but one question remains. Who defines what is and is not. Incase of my human experience that would be me. But I am clearly not that capable of making that descisions. At least it feels like that.
- I enjoy the thought of planning things. Sometimes planning itself can be enjoyable. Executing plans is in my experience not that enjoyable. I considered planning a new chair that fits into my room, that i could build myself so it actually suits my needs but the act of building it would just confirm my lack of actual craftsmanship
- Between places a bus with a large advertismenet lable encouraging people to become foster parents drove past me. Why? Initially it doesnt make any difference for the children who’s situation would probably improve. But long time solutions should be prioritized and advocating for it in a casual manner does not seem as responsible as i’d like.
- I think i would have made a great excentric vicotrian nobleman, making bad scientific experiments with questionable value but having a somewhat accaptable reputation due to one somewhat good idea i had throug the years
i really liked the thought-section, very relatable and written pleasantly
plus: the image is a perfect addition
You’re so fucking depressed it’s actually impressive